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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Im still living with it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He resisted the act ,that day.

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She married twice! .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

This is soul school!.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I have a black elbow sleeve leotard that I wear with sheer pantyhose. Should I keep my pants off and show my legs?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It was going to be , some day.

Why do many women like tall men?

I don,t even have a pension.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Why did I move on so fast from a relationship that was my whole life and I was so attached, I moved on by 2 months?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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He knew the spot.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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She found it foreign!.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I have no regrets .

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We were not on the streets..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was very sick at this time too.

What did i know ?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

So, i spoilt her more .

We all went to grammer schools

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I write beautiful poetry .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

So whats the point in blame.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was scared of men, in general

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Put me off passion for life!!

And i lived it daily.

Ive learnt so much.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She loved him until the end.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I think the readers, may guess!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My family never makes their pension either.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was 9 years of age.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I said to her

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My life is so biszare .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I could never make a relationship work though!

She wouldn,t have been !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I will be 64.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But, we were locked up after school.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was in good health!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Who then, do I blame.?

When she asked me how she looked .

Comes on , in middle age.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

All the time i was locked up.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I was seconnd youngest,

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One cannot live in the past .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Would this be the day?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I waited trembling.

But it wasn’t much.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.